Dream

Last night I had a traumatic and telling dream about my current emotional and mental state.

                I was in a drugstore. I was walking in around and there was a long line to talk to the pharmacist. The pharmacist seemed inexperienced. They were on the phone with someone, and their conversation was being broadcast over the loudspeakers. The person on the phone kept saying in a weak and terrified voice that they were hemorrhaging and were going to die. They were begging for help. The pharmacist obviously couldn’t help and seemed completely overwhelmed. The people in line kept looking at the pharmacist like they should be able to do something for this poor caller. Finally, the pharmacist blurted out, “You’re going to go to heaven, don’t worry!” Then there was a dial tone.

I think I am represented by all four people or groups in the dream.

                Me as the pharmacist: One of my dream interpretation books says that a pharmacist can represent changes. There are a lot of changes in my life right now and I’m feeling overwhelmed by them, just as the pharmacist is overwhelmed by the caller. The line of people looking at me could represent expectations of my (home)work ethic and not being able to meet those expectations. The pharmacist could also represent me as a future health professional and the feeling of not knowing how to or be able to help someone in crisis. I think telling the caller that they would go to heaven represents hope that good things are coming and maybe could even lead to a rebirth.

                Me as me: I think me as an observer could represent a lack of control and/or feelings about my train wreck of a life right now.

                Me as a person in line: I think this represents feeling as though my needs are not important enough to put myself first and looking/feeling selfish if I tried. Surprisingly, waiting isn’t in any of my dream books.

                Me as the dying person: I feel like I’m bleeding out (energy/life force/time) and no one can stop it, including me. No one can help. The books say that blood can represent passion. Possibly that I feel I’m already losing passion for this career and not being able to control that. Bleeding can represent that fortune will turn against me. My last dream book agrees with my interpretations and all the other symbol interpretations. Loss of life, love, passion, and fortune with no control.

                Super.